karenirvineshoaxstead Gary Speed an other Bennell victim

‘I’m so depressed. I’m just going to go to sleep now and hope I never wake up’: Gary Speed’s widow reveals new letter showing the Wales manager battled depression from age of 17 until he took his own life

  • Louise Speed, 48, found letter he sent her when they were dating as teenagers 
  • Aged 17, the welshman said he was depressed and implied had suicidal thoughts
  • Finding the letter was ‘a lightbulb moment’ for Louise in realising Gary’s struggle

Gary Speed’s widow has found a letter suggesting the troubled football icon struggled with mental health problems since he was a teenager.

Louise Speed, 48, said ‘nobody had seen it coming’ when she found the father-of-two hanged in their Cheshire garage in 2011.

Now, she has revealed she stumbled on a handwritten note he sent her when he was 17 playing for Leeds United where he speaks of ‘wanting to never wake up’.

Gary Speed with wife Louise at a 2011 event in Manchester

Gary Speed with wife Louise at a 2011 event in Manchester

Gary Speed playing for Leeds United. He played for their youth team from 1984-1998 before graduating to their first team, where he played until 1996

Gary Speed playing for Leeds United. He played for their youth team from 1984-1998 before graduating to their first team, where he played until 1996

In the letter, the Welshman wrote: ‘I’m so depressed. I’m just going to go to sleep now and hope I never wake up. I love you so much.’

Gary, aged 18, in a Leeds United team picture

Gary, aged 18, in a Leeds United team picture

Gary had written the letter to Louise when the pair were dating as teenagers after meeting at Hawarden High School in north Wales.

She has no recollection of receiving the letter, but said it that confirms the ex-Welsh manager was battling with depression from a young age.

She said: ‘Seeing that was a lightbulb moment for me. It answers an awful lot about why he did what he did. It’s not something a normal 17-year-old would write, is it? Or not a well one. It seems to say it all really, when you consider how he ended his life.

‘If he had a mental illness then he probably had it from an early age.

‘Maybe Gary’s problems were a time-bomb waiting to explode.’

Recalling the hours before Gary took his own life, Louise said it had been a ‘normal day’.

The couple’s sons, Ed, 14, and Tom, 13, had played football.

Gary, then-42, had recorded an episode of BBC’s Football Focus and was in ‘high spirits’ and went to a party at a friend’s house.

She adds: ‘There’s never a day goes by that the memory of it doesn’t take my breath away. That scene was like a horror film. I wish there was an operation which could take your memory out and ­obliterate it from my mind.

Gary’s letter to Louise

Dear Louise,

I don’t really know what to say. I have been thinking about finishing at Leeds, I’ve also been thinking of other things which I won’t say. I’m so depressed. I’m just going to go to sleep now and hope I never wake up. I love you so much, I will always love you. I don’t know what else to say except you might see me sooner than you think, or otherwise. You never leave my mind, nothing else seems to matter anymore, I love you more than you can imagine.

Gary xxx

‘It’s something I will find hard to forgive Gary for. We were the ones who had to pick up the pieces and what he’d done was grotesque.

‘Everyone asks why he did it but I have no answers. That’s why I’ll never have any closure.

‘The letter has made me realise dark thoughts were there from a young age.

‘Very dark thoughts which he wasn’t able to talk about. Maybe something had happened early on which he had kept to himself.’

His widow found the note while helping Gary’s journalist friend John ­Richardson write new book Gary Speed Unspoken: The Family’s Untold Story, which is on sale from Thursday.

Gary Speed with his wife Loiuise shortly before his death in 2011

Gary Speed with his wife Loiuise shortly before his death in 2011

Pictured: A 14-year-old Gary Speed as a junior footballer in Manchester

Pictured: A 14-year-old Gary Speed as a junior footballer in Manchester

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Gary Speed, making his debut for Sheffield United in Wolverhampton in 2001

Gary Speed, making his debut for Sheffield United in Wolverhampton in 2001

Gary Speed said he was 'depressed' and 'never wanted to wake up', in a letter he wrote aged 17

Gary Speed said he was ‘depressed’ and ‘never wanted to wake up’, in a letter he wrote aged 17

The former Wales manager was one of four men who went on to take their own lives after being coached by convicted paedophile Barry Bennell.

Although Gary was questioned by police and made no allegations against Bennell, Louise told the Mirror he ‘may have been masking things’ and ‘was obviously struggling from 17’.

In a documentary aired in February, another of Bennell’s victims said he is ‘99.9 per cent certain’ the ex-Everton star suffered the same abuse as he did.

A fan holds up a 'There's only one Gary Speed' shirt in tribute to the late footballer

A fan holds up a ‘There’s only one Gary Speed’ shirt in tribute to the late footballer

He played for Crewe’s youth team at the same time Bennell was in charge, but told police he hadn’t suffered any abuse.

Speaking of the late midfielder, Louise said: ‘There was so much love out there for him and that’s why the impact it has left is almost indescribable. It rips apart a large part of you which you can never replace because what happened was unnatural.

‘Sometimes when I see homeless guys on the street I think, “What is it that keeps them going?” They have nothing. Gary had everything.

Lift the Veil

Published on Jul 11, 2018



I just feel so horrible for these kids, you can see the unhappines in their eyes. There’s a very special place waiting for this monster in Hell and anyone who says this didn’t happen is straight up trolling. No child could make these horrific things up that they went through, you couldn’t even coach them on it, what they said was to fluid and organic plus we all know the evil that goes on in the world. I just get furious at even the mention of the word Hampstead. Please pray for these children that they don’t grow up to do what the father raised them in.

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P J Hunter
When I was listening to their stories their interviews etc… I realized I had heard the story before… and they both confirmed one another. They were thirty years apart almost. When I listened to Vicki it was so hard to hear… I just stored it away… till I heard the Hampstead kids… That is what woke me up. Here is Vicki’s story. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7QXz6hDtxI


The Mystery Hopper
LOL, you two should put your heads together and make a fence.


Mark John
Excellent follow up story Natahan. This is indeed further confirmation of repeated child exploitation, by these perpetrators whom seem to have selective amnesia. It appears that “they” believe that their behavior is normal and without consequences. Far beyond anything normal and descent. Where is Law Enforcement, Arrests, Public Trials and The Must Do Justice System.? ….All are currently MIA. Behold! Father is watching everyone and everything. A Millstone is their just recompense….for it is


Big Brother is Watching You… and now it gets really scary

By seagullnic

I HAVE just read the most disturbing news item I have come across in a long time.

I am beyond shocked… I am frightened for my children and my grandchildren

I cough and allow my mind to drift to a peaceful place sitting in the summer sunshine on the north side of the Isle of Jura watching the sea wash white horses on the rocks below me.

Less than 300 yards to the south of where I am sitting is the isolated cottage known as Barnhill… this was the rented home of writer George Orwell, who lived there intermittently from 1946 until his death in 1950. Orwell completed his novel Nineteen Eighty-Four while living there.

It was a place I visited often during my two years living and working as a newspaper editor in the wilds of Argyll, in western Scotland, some 28 years ago.

Barnhill always held a fascination for me, because Nineteen Eighty-Four had remained my favourite novel since I was first mesmerised by Orwell’s vision of a future dystopian world as a raw 14-year-old. And I loved to imagine the views he must have taken in while writing that classic of English literature.

First published in 1948, yet set 36 years later, Nineteen Eighty-Four tells the story of Winston Smith is a member of the Outer Party.

Winston works in the Records Department in the Ministry of Truth, rewriting and distorting history, under the dictator Big Brother.

But Winston is determined to remain human under inhuman circumstances and begins a diary. Yet telescreens are placed everywhere — in his home, in his cubicle at work, in the cafeteria where he eats, even in the bathroom stalls. His every move is watched. No place is safe.

One day, while at the mandatory Two Minutes Hate, Winston catches the eye of an Inner Party Member, O’Brien, whom he believes to be an ally. He also catches the eye of a dark-haired girl named Julia from the Fiction Department.

A few days later Julia secretly hands him a note that reads: “I love you.” Winston takes pains to meet her, and when they finally do, Julia draws up a plan whereby they can be alone.

Once alone in the countryside, Winston and Julia make love and begin their allegiance against the Party and Big Brother. They fall in love, and, while they know that they will someday be caught, they believe that the love and loyalty they feel for each other can never be taken from them.

Eventually, Winston and Julia confess to O’Brien, whom they believe to be a member of the Brotherhood (an underground organization aimed at bringing down the Party), their hatred of the Party.

O’Brien welcomes them into the Brotherhood with an array of questions and arranges for Winston to be given a copy of “the book,” the underground’s treasonous volume written by their leader, Emmanuel Goldstein.

Winston gets the book and takes it to the secure room where he reads it with Julia napping by his side. The two are disturbed by a noise behind a painting in the room and discover a telescreen. They are quickly dragged away and separated.

Winston finds himself deep inside the Ministry of Love, a prison with no windows, where he sits for days alone. Finally, O’Brien comes. Initially Winston believes that O’Brien has also been caught, but he soon realizes that O’Brien is there to torture him and break his spirit.

O’Brien spends the next few months torturing Winston in order to change his way of thinking — to employ the concept of doublethink, or the ability to simultaneously hold two opposing ideas in one’s mind and believe in them both.

Finally, O’Brien takes Winston to Room 101, the most dreaded room of all in the Ministry of Love, the place where prisoners meet their greatest fear. Winston’s greatest fear is rats. O’Brien places over Winston’s head a mask made of wire mesh and threatens to open the door to release rats on Winston’s face.

When Winston screams, “Do it to Julia!” he relinquishes his last vestige of humanity.

Winston is a changed man. He sits in the Chestnut Tree Café, watching the telescreens and agonizing over the results of daily battles on the front lines. He has seen Julia again. She, too, is changed, seeming older and less attractive. She admits that she also betrayed him. In the end, there is no doubt, Winston loves Big Brother.

Today, the year 1984 has long passed, but Orwell’s futuristic vision of hell on Earth remains.

Big Brother is now everywhere

Mainstream newspapers and TV channels feed us daily propaganda – the “facts” the Establishment wish us to believe
CCTV cameras are on every street corner and inside every store – yet we never know who is monitoring them
Number Plate Recognition cameras are installed at almost every filling station and car park
Sat Nav satellites pick-up every move of our car, van or truck
Cookies and spyware follow every finger click we make on our PC or tablet
Police DNA and fingerprint databases have more than 30% of adults logged on their files
MSN, Messenger text messages and private phone calls are harvested by government snoopers at GCHQ
Our employment, financial and residential history is catalogued in the finest detail by so-called credit reference agencies such as Equifax and Experian
Our lives are no longer secret… Big Brother knows all of us.

Which brings me back to beginning…

I stare again at the news item and in something which can only be described as Nineteen Eighty-Four meets Black Mirror the headline reads: Implanting Microchips for Convenience.

The article explains how plans are already being rolled out to implant a tiny microchip in people’s hand which could eventually replace the need for credit cards, car keys and much more.

And this dystopian world is almost upon us right now.

Micro-chipping is almost routine at the Swedish start-up hub Epicenter. The company offers to implant its workers and start-up members with microchips the size of grains of rice that function as swipe cards: to open doors, operate printers, or buy smoothies with a wave of the hand.

The injections have become so popular that workers at Epicenter hold parties for those willing to get implanted.

“The biggest benefit I think is convenience,” said Patrick Mesterton, co-founder and CEO of Epicenter.

As a demonstration, he unlocks a door by merely waving near it.

“It basically replaces a lot of things you have, other communication devices, whether it be credit cards or keys,” he explains.

The technology in itself is not new.

Such chips are used as virtual collar plates for pets. Companies use them to track deliveries. It’s just never been used to tag employees on a broad scale before.

Epicenter and a handful of other companies are the first to make chip implants broadly available.

While biologically safe, the data generated by the chips can show how often an employee comes to work or what they buy. Unlike company swipe cards or smartphones, which can generate the same data, a person cannot easily separate themselves from the chip.

“Of course, putting things into your body is quite a big step to do and it was even for me at first,” said Mr Mesterton, remembering how he initially had had doubts.

“But then on the other hand, I mean, people have been implanting things into their body, like pacemakers and stuff to control your heart,” he said. “That’s a way, way more serious thing than having a small chip that can actually communicate with devices.”

Epicenter, which is home to more than 100 companies and some 2,000 workers, began implanting workers in January 2015. Now, about 150 workers have them.

A company based in Belgium also offers its employees such implants.

And last year a company in Wisconsin has become the first in the USA to roll out microchip implants for all its employees.

The initiative, which is optional for employees at snack stall supplier Three Square Market (32M), implants radio-frequency identification (RFID) chips in staff members’ hands in between their thumb and forefinger.

Once tagged with the implant 32M says its employees will be able to perform a range of common office tasks with an effortless wave of their hand.

“We foresee the use of RFID technology to drive everything from making purchases in our office break room market, opening doors, use of copy machines, logging into our office computers, unlocking phones, sharing business cards, storing medical/health information, and used as payment at other RFID terminals,” says 32M CEO, Todd Westby.

The chips make use of near-field communication (NFC), and are similar to ones already in use in things like contactless credit cards, mobile payment systems, and animal tag implants.

“It will happen to everybody,” says Noelle Chesley, 49, associate professor of sociology at the University of Wisconsin-Milwaukee.

“But not this year, maybe not my generation, but certainly that of my kids.”

But Gene Munster, an analyst at Loup Ventures, thinks embedded chips in human bodies is 50 years away.

“The idea of being chipped has too “much negative connotation today,” he says, but by 2067 “we will have been desensitized by the social stigma.”

So the next time your child has to stand in-line for an eye recognition device to pay for their school dinner, or the next time you use your finger print to log into your iPhone, remember the Isle of Jura and George Orwell’s words of warning.

Big Brother is watching you.


Big Brother

martin noakes tweets on Mel Shaw

  1. I have just received this e-mail back from the IICSA – It confirms that they don’t think it necessary for Melanie Shaw (A key witness) to testify about Beechwood – UNBELIEVABLE! – This inquiry is a complete farce

  2. Melanie Shaw has been stitched-up yet again. Found guilty of 3 counts of arson with no evidence presented. The authorities are desperate to keep her away from the child abuse inquiry – Brian Gerrish explains the stuation

  3. UK Column Report on Melanie Shaw’s latest court case – A complete setup. So many things don’t add up!

  4.   Retweeted

    Justice for Melanie Shaw

  5.   Retweeted
    Replying to 

    Cover up from the highest positions in government some say. Reminds me of the mainly Muslim rape gangs operating for decades that government, police, councils, child services and judges knew about, and did nothing.

  6.   Retweeted

    This is so unlawful. Someone needs to step in and help Melanie.

Huddersfield grooming: Twenty guilty of campaign of rape and abuse

Huddersfield grooming: Twenty guilty of campaign of rape and abuse

Huddersfield grooming gang
Image captionThe men, all from Yorkshire, went by nicknames including “Dracula”, “Bully”, “Beastie” and “Nurse”

Twenty men have been found guilty of being part of a grooming gang that raped and abused girls as young as 11 in Huddersfield.

The men were convicted of more than 120 offences against 15 girls.

Victims were plied with drink and drugs and then “used and abused at will” in a seven-year “campaign of rape and abuse” between 2004 and 2011.

At Leeds Crown Court, the ringleader, Amere Singh Dhaliwal, 35, was jailed for life with a minimum of 18 years.

Other members of the gang were jailed for between five and 18 years but the court heard many perpetrators have never been identified.

Details of the men’s convictions and sentences can only now be published after reporting restrictions on a series of trials were partially lifted.

During the three trials, jurors heard how the men – who are all British Asians mainly of Pakistani heritage – preyed on young, vulnerable girls, one of whom was described as having the mental age of a seven-year-old.

Media captionBarry Sheerman MP says the authorities did not act quickly enough to investigate grooming

The men, all from Yorkshire, went by nicknames including “Dracula” – which Nahman Mohammed was known as.

Mohammed Imran Ibrar was known as “Bully”, Abdul Rehman was nicknamed “Beastie”, while Nasarat Hussain was known as “Nurse”.

Jailing 16 of the men earlier this year, Judge Geoffrey Marson QC said: “The way you treated these girls defies understanding; this abuse was vile and wicked.

“As cases of sexual abuse with which the courts have to deal, this case comes top of the scale.”

As married father-of-two Dhaliwal was sentenced, the judge told him: “The extent and gravity of your offending far exceeds anything which I have previously encountered.

“Children’s lives have been ruined and families profoundly affected by seeing their children, over months and years, out of control, having been groomed by you and other members of your gang.”

Amere Singh DhaliwalImage copyrightWEST YORKSHIRE POLICE
Image captionAmere Singh Dhaliwal was convicted of 54 separate counts including 22 rapes involving 11 girls

In May, the former leader of the English Defence League Tommy Robinson was arrested for reporting on the case live on Facebook during the second of the trials.

He was jailed for contempt of court but his conviction was quashed because of a number of procedural errors. He faces a fresh hearing in relation to the alleged breach.

Such was the men’s hold over the girls, one mother said her child cracked her head jumping from a first-floor balcony at their home in order to get out after they ordered her to meet them.

The girl later told police: “Every time I went out something bad happened. I risked my life every time. I was a mess.”

Another victim, who only escaped the abuse when her family had to move following a house fire, said: “It was the best thing I ever did, and that’s bad saying that burning your house down is the best thing you ever did.”

Ian Mottershaw
Image captionDet Ch Insp Ian Mottershaw, who led the investigation, called the men “depraved”


By BBC Home Editor Mark Easton

Rotherham, Oxford, Rochdale, Derby, Banbury, Telford, Peterborough, Aylesbury, Bristol, Halifax, Keighley, Newcastle… now Huddersfield. The list seems endless… and there will almost certainly be more.

The sexual abuse of vulnerable children in English towns by groups of men, often from immigrant communities, is an incarnation of a wider scandal that is dominating our news and overwhelming our police and our courts.

It is a crime that until recently was rarely discussed in public. Child sexual abuse was often ignored or covered up: the protection of institutional reputation or community cohesion put before the protection of children.

The grooming gangs of provincial England tend to operate where the disinfectant of public scrutiny struggles to reach – poorer neighbourhoods on the edge of town, around the mini-cab ranks and fast food joints, the twilight zones of urban life.

Child abuse thrives in such dark corners, where people look the other way, not asking questions or following concerns because the subject matter is uncomfortable and scrutiny is potentially damaging. But when we look, we find.

Presentational grey line

During the trials, the court heard girls would be driven up to remote moorland late at night and abandoned if they refused the men’s sexual demands.

A sheep farmer told the BBC how he found distressed girls on the doorstep of his isolated home on a number of occasions.

One victim said her relationship with some of the gang became “one of those things that you couldn’t get out of”.

At house parties, girls would be plied with alcohol and drugs before being sexually abused “one by one” by the men, sometimes without contraception.

The court heard they were abused in cars, car parks, houses, a snooker centre and a takeaway, often with other defendants and fellow victims watching on.

Manchester Road
Image captionShaf’s snooker club, which used to be in this row of shops on Manchester Road, was a place where the girls were taken, the court heard

Victims and their families said they repeatedly told West Yorkshire Police what was happening but no arrests were made until years later.

Speaking outside court, Det Ch Insp Ian Mottershaw, from the force, said: “The investigation into this case has been extremely complex and the investigative team have worked tirelessly for the past five years to ensure that no stone has been left unturned.

“We welcome the convictions and sentences which have been passed down throughout the year to these depraved individuals, who subjected vulnerable young children to unthinkable sexual and physical abuse.”

Barry Sheerman, Labour MP for Huddersfield, said: “Let’s be honest: no-one, local authority leadership, police, many of the people that should have been taking this more seriously earlier did not.

“But also, what happened in Rotherham and the publicity of Rotherham galvanised the action.”

Steve Walker, director of children’s services at Kirklees Council, said it had asked independent expert Dr Mark Peel to undertake a review of “these non-recent cases to identify whether there are any lessons we can learn”.

“These crimes took place a number of years ago at a time when, as we know from cases in other towns and cities, the issue of CSE was not well understood,” he added.

Presentational grey line

The convicted men:

  • Amere Singh Dhaliwal, 35, of Holly Road, Huddersfield, guilty of 54 counts, including 22 counts of rape, sentenced to life with a minimum term of 18 years
  • Irfan Ahmed, 34, of Yews Hill Road, Huddersfield, guilty of one count of sexual assault and two counts of trafficking for sexual exploitation, sentenced to eight years
  • Zahid Hassan, 29, of Bland Street Huddersfield, guilty of six counts of rape, one count of attempted rape, one count of sexual assault, one count of trafficking for sexual exploitation, two counts of child abduction, two counts of supplying class A drugs sentenced to 18 years
  • Mohammed Kammer, 34, of West View, Huddersfield, guilty of two counts of rape, sentenced to 16 years
  • Mohammed Rizwan Aslam, 31, of Huddersfield Road, Dewsbury, guilty of two counts of rape, sentenced to 15 years
  • Abdul Rehman, 31, of Darnely Drive, Sheffield, guilty of supplying a class C drug, one count of rape, one count of assault and one count of trafficking for sexual exploitation, sentenced to 16 years
  • Raj Singh Barsran, 34, of Caldercliffe Road, Huddersfield, guilty of rape and two counts of sexual assault, sentenced to 17 years
  • Nahman Mohammed, 32, of West View, Huddersfield, guilty of two counts of rape and one count of trafficking for sexual exploitation, sentenced to 15 years
  • Mansoor Akhtar, 27, of Blackmoorfoot Road, Huddersfield, guilty of two counts of rape and two counts of trafficking for sexual exploitation, sentenced to eight years
  • Wiqas Mahmud, 38, of Banks Crescent, Huddersfield, guilty of three counts of rape, sentenced to 15 years
  • Nasarat Hussain, 30, of Upper Mount Street, Huddersfield, guilty of three counts of rape and one count of sexual assault, sentenced to 17 years
  • Sajid Hussain, of 33, of Grasmere Road, Huddersfield, guilty of two counts of rape, sentenced to 17 years
  • Mohammed Irfraz, 30, of North Road, Huddersfield, guilty of child abduction and two counts of trafficking for sexual exploitation, sentenced to six years
  • Faisal Nadeem, 32, of Carr Green, Huddersfield, guilty of rape and supplying class A drugs, sentenced to 12 years
  • Mohammed Azeem, 33, of Wrose Road, Bradford, guilty of five counts of rape, sentenced to 18 years
  • Manzoor Hassan, 38, of Bland Street, Huddersfield, guilty of administering a noxious substance, inciting child prostitution and supplying a class A drug, sentenced to five years
  • Mohammed Akram, 33, of Springdale Street, Huddersfield, guilty of two counts of rape and two counts of trafficking for sexual exploitation and awaiting sentencing
  • Niaz Ahmed, 54, of Woodthorpe Terrace, Huddersfield, guilty of sexual assault and inciting a child to engage in sexual activity and awaiting sentencing
  • Asif Bashir, 33, of Thornton Lodge Road, Huddersfield, guilty of, rape and attempted rape and awaiting sentencing
  • Mohammed Imran Ibrar, 34, of Manchester Road, Huddersfield, guilty of trafficking for sexual exploitation and assault and awaiting sentencing

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Wildcat scottish child abuse


Scottish Child Abuse Inquiry Publishes First Case Study Findings

11 October 2018


Scottish Child Abuse Inquiry Publishes First Case Study Findings

Many Children found “no love, no compassion, no dignity and no comfort” whilst in the care of the Daughters of Charity in Scotland

The Scottish Child Abuse Inquiry has today (Thursday 11 October) published its findings into residential institutions run by the Daughters of Charity of St Vincent de Paul (DoC). They conclude that children did suffer abuse.

During the case study, the Inquiry considered evidence about the nature and extent of any relevant abuse at institutions run by the DoC in Scotland, with a particular focus on Smyllum and Bellevue.

The Inquiry also examined any systems, policies and procedures in place at these institutions, and how these were applied.

Lady Smith, Chair of the Scottish Child Abuse Inquiry, said: “For many children who were in Smyllum and Bellevue, the homes were places of fear, coercive control, threat, excessive discipline and emotional, physical and sexual abuse, where they found no love, no compassion, no dignity and no comfort.”

Lady Smith will take these findings into account when she analyses all the evidence gathered by the Inquiry and decides what recommendations to make within the final report.

The 20-day case study took place from November 2017 to January 2018, during which time the Inquiry heard evidence from 54 witnesses about their experiences of Smyllum Park in Lanark and Bellevue House in Rutherglen. A further 21 written statements of evidence were read in during the public hearings.

Applicants and other witnesses continue to come forward to the Inquiry with relevant evidence about the care provided by DoC and this will be considered as part of the continuing process.

The findings from the DoC case study can be read in full on the Inquiry website: http://www.ChildAbuseInquiry.Scot


Link to the case study findings – Daughters of Charity – PDF version

PDF  https://www.childabuseinquiry.scot/case-study-findings/case-study-findings-pdf-version/

SOURCE https://www.childabuseinquiry.scot/news/scottish-child-abuse-inquiry-publishes-first-case-study-findings  archive

Smyllum Park Orphanage in Lanark

Children were subjected to horrifying abuse at a former children’s home run by the Catholic Church in Rutherglen, an investigation has revealed.

A public inquiry has found that nuns, priests and staff at Bellevue House and also Smyllum Park in Lanark physically and sexually abused kids for many decades.

In its first interim report, published last Thursday, the Scottish child abuse inquiry (SCAI) found that boys and girls housed in the two Catholic residential homes were systematically starved of love, dignity and compassion.

Lady Smith, chair of the commission, said: “For many children who were in Smyllum and Bellevue, the homes were places of fear, coercive control, threat, excessive discipline and emotional, physical and sexual abuse, where they found no love, no compassion, no dignity and no comfort.”

She added: “For some children, being hit was a normal aspect of daily life.”

Bellevue House, which was based in Clincarthill, and Smyllum Park were run by the Daughters of Charity of St Vincent de Paul.

Nearly 6,600 children lived at Bellevue House from its opening in 1912 until 1943, but no records show how many were there until its closure in 1961.

These included children who were orphaned or whose families were unable to care for them.

And while Lady Smith focused on the period from 1917 to 1981 when investigating Smyllum Park, more than 11,600 children were placed at the Lanark home from its opening in 1864 until its closure 117 years later.

The inquiry was set up in October 2015 to look at the historical
abuse of children in care across Scotland.

It is currently looking at allegations of physical and sexual abuse at 86 institutions, including former children’s homes and boarding schools.

From the end of November last year, the child abuse inquiry heard case study evidence over 20 days about the Daughters of Charity of St Vincent de Paul.

It emerged in August that at least 16 former members of staff at Smyllum Park – mostly women, including several nuns – had been arrested by Police Scotland and charged over alleged abuse. Their cases have now been referred to a specialist unit at the Crown Office, Scotland’s prosecution service.

Lady Smith upheld allegations from some residents that they were systematically sexually abused by priests, a trainee priest, nuns and lay members of staff.

She records former residents being physically assaulted with hairbrushes, a leather belt or tawse, rosary beads and wooden crucifixes

The report details victims being force-fed at meal times, being forced to wear their wet sheets and verbally humiliated after wetting the bed. Children were also used as unpaid labour when staff numbers were short.

The inquiry, which has cost £15.67m so far, was scheduled to end next year but the Scottish Government has since said it can take as long as it needs.



WILDCAT Perth nursery stands on the brink of closure after paedophile case sparks exodus …just like Sylvia Major

Perth nursery stands on the brink of closure after paedophile case sparks exodus

28th SEPT 2018

Parents in Perth were given the bombshell news that their nursery is just days away from closure.

The husband of a committee member was exposed as a paedophile in June which caused the group’s roll call to dwindle significantly.

Thursday night’s annual general meeting of Kinnoull Nursery was told that the pre-school group has suffered a “dramatic decline” in numbers which has “significantly reduced income”.

The nursery, which is based at Kinnoull Church, only has enough cash in the bank to keep going until October 5 and staff have been given a risk of redundancy letter.

Families are furious that the actions of Alister Coull, 58, who was caught with a stash of obscene pictures of children, were not revealed by nursery staff for about a year.

The nursery had already been given 14 months to leave its base at Kinnoull Parish Church, just weeks before Coull’s crime came to light.

Temporary chairman Mark Wilson – who later resigned from the role during the stormy meeting – told the AGM the nursery was losing up to £3,000 per month.

“There has been a dramatic decline in the number of children which significantly reduces the income coming in,” he said.

“The nursery currently spends more than it is bringing in.

“At the moment we have enough money to last until October 5. It has been an interesting and challenging time.”

Parents demanded to know why they weren’t made aware of how bad things were before now.

One said: “What the hell has happened in the past couple of months?

“There has been a severe lack of communication.”

Some suggested that if they’d known how close the nursery was to closure then steps could have been taken to save it.

Terry Myers from Bridgend, Gannochy and Kinnoull Community Council, said: “There is a great deal of concern about the loss of our nursery.

“What I don’t hear from you (Mr Wilson) at the moment is a sense of urgency – a programme that you might suggest to us that might help get the nursery going again.

“What I’m hearing is a rather depressing summary from you of what has gone wrong.

“I didn’t even know the nursery was closing – nobody told us.”

Mr Myers said the community council now wants to work with the nursery to save it.

There was a suggestion the children could move into the Isle of Skye building for a temporary period.

A longer-term suggestion would be moving to Rio House with other groups if a community asset transfer can be agreed with Perth and Kinross Council.

Parents have formed a new committee and the future of the nursery will be on the agenda at Thursday’s community council meeting.

Paedophile had no involvement with the nursery

Alister Coull appeared at Perth Sheriff Court in June and was placed on the sex offenders register and ordered to carry out 135 hours of unpaid work.

Nursery management stressed they were not aware of the crime until it was reported in the local press.

His wife, Jillian, was a member of the nursery committee but, according to bosses, she did not make them aware of the impending court case.

The court heard Coull was caught with nearly 150 indecent images.

Most were at category C level, with 12 at the second most serious level and one at category A.

It is understood Coull had no involvement with the nursery.

Kinnoull Nursery is an independent, privately-run enterprise that has been renting space in the hall of for some years.

The nursery, which is regulated by the Care Inspectorate, was informed by the church in May this year that due to agreements the church had with other groups also using the hall, it had taken the decision to serve 14 months’ notice to the nursery to find alternative accommodation that would be better suited to its operational needs.



RIKKI HENDERSON #Strichen! Former north-east cop spared jail over ‘sickening collection’ of indecent images of children

13th OCT 2018

A disgraced ex-police officer who accumulated a “sickening collection” of indecent images of children has been spared jail.

Rikki Henderson was also convicted of taking and sharing a picture of a woman’s private parts.

A jury at Aberdeen Sheriff Court found him guilty of three charges following a trial in August.

During proceedings the court heard images of children as young as eight engaged in sadistic sexual activity were found in the “sent” folder of his Whatsapp account.

Of the nine found, seven were found in category C, the least serious, one was category B and another was A.

He had also been accused of two sexual assaults at the Army Cadet Force in Boddam, near Peterhead, but the jury found these charges not proven.

Henderson, of Bridge Street in Strichen, had denied any wrongdoing and returned to court yesterday to be sentenced.

Representing the 25-year-old, defence agent John MacLeod said his client had lost everything as a result of the offences.

He said the report suggested he “lacked emotional maturity” and he had “lost two careers”.

Sheriff William Summers said the woman who Henderson had taken a picture of had been forced to come to court as a result of his not guilty plea and she did so with “dignity” which was the “absolute opposite of how you conducted yourself”.

He added: “I recognise that your life has fallen apart in a very meaningful way. You are solely and entirely the author of that.”

He placed Henderson under supervision and on the sex offenders register for three years and ordered him to carry out 260 hours of unpaid work.

Following the outcome, a spokesman for the NSPCC said: “As a police officer and army cadet instructor, Henderson was in a position of great trust in the community but ignored this responsibility to accumulate a sickening collection of images of children being abused.

“Behind every image was a real child suffering appalling abuse and Henderson’s actions in possessing them have only fuelled the demand for this sickening material to be produced.”



Copper RIKKI HENDERSON. Strichen




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A woman who fell pregnant and miscarried after being raped by a paedophile former policeman as an 11-year-old is fighting to name her abuser (stock image)

Woman who fell pregnant at the age of 11 after being raped by a policeman who sexually assaulted nine children slams legal technicality that keeps his identity secret

  • Tracey May was raped by a serial paedophile former policeman when she was 11
  • She became pregnant and miscarried, and is one of a dozen of the man’s victims 
  • The Victorian legal system prevents her from naming the man who abused her
  • Review found victims should be able to disclose abuser identity after conviction
  • Ms May said she will keep fighting to name the man, who is serving 15 years’ jail 

A woman who fell pregnant and miscarried at age 11 after being raped by a paedophile former policeman is fighting to name her abuser.

Despite facing the serial child sex predator in court, Tracey May is unable to expose his identity due to a suppression order dating back to 2012.

A review of Victoria’s legal system last year found adult victims of sexual assault should be able to identify their attackers after conviction, but Ms May still cannot speak out.

Despite facing the serial child sex predator in court, Tracey May (pictured) still cannot expose him, due to a suppression order dating back to 2012

Despite facing the serial child sex predator in court, Tracey May (pictured) still cannot expose him, due to a suppression order dating back to 2012

The non-publication order, made when Ms May’s abuser’s court proceedings began, has no end date and no explanation for why it was put in place.

Chief Magistrate Peter Lauritsen said the order was made before the Open Courts Act was passed in 2013, which placed a five-year limit on suppression orders.

The act was passed to improve transparency in the state’s justice system, but hundreds of orders are still issued every year, including blanket reporting bans.

Ms May said the man who raped her is being protected by the suppression order, which means she can’t go public with his name – despite the fact he was found guilty.

‘I faced him in court and I wasn’t afraid for the first time in my life. And then to be told I couldn’t speak his name,’ she told The Age.

Her abuser, a former police officer with more than a dozen victims, raped nine children as young as five over an 18-year period to 1985.

One boy was brutalised in the back of a police van, while another was attacked at a police station.

After being reported by a parent in 1979, he left Victoria Police and moved north, attacking seven more children in New South Wales.

A woman who fell pregnant and miscarried after being raped by a paedophile former policeman as an 11-year-old is fighting to name her abuser (stock image)